I feel so much peace.
I’m allowing myself to shed anything that doesn’t bring me peace and joy and center.
I’m creating healthy space for me to thrive and grow.
Mentally, physically, spiritually.
I’m taking control of my happiness. I’m no longer going to leave it up to chance.
I’m realizing that energy is limited. It is allowed to be. It HAS to be.
No longer am I going to live in a world where I give so much of myself so freely, even when it feels taxing or diminishing.
This isn’t being authentic, simply giving at the expense of myself.
That is not loving. And no longer will I expect that of others.
I honor this season of my life.
I cannot control where other people are in their life, how healed and whole they are…
Because I don’t wish others to ask that from me.
If where I am is not healthy for someone, I respect their choice to not participate.
I cannot control others but I can set limits on what I know I can handle, what brings out the best and worst in me as I learn how to balance.
This includes ways of thinking, habits, actions, people, and places.
I allow myself to be selective in who I interact with as I explore this new self—stronger, healthier, spiritually-sound self, positive self.
You cannot demand from others anything.
You can only choose to participate in their energy, their style of love.
Until I feel strong enough to filter other people’s energies without being affected, I will choose to surround myself around those who love like I do.
This is healing.
This is healthy.
This is reasonable and 100% okay.
I claim that and I honor that.
I want to discipline myself and my emotions.
I don’t want to be hateful or angry or malicious.
I want to be balanced and peaceful and kind and therefore need to surround myself around those who make that easy to be until the day comes that being those things comes naturally in any given situation.
I’m not there yet. But I will be.
Some may argue that is impossible.
I no longer want to fill my mouth with foul words and gossip.
As I spend time looking at the ocean in such a clean environment, I feel conviction about these things.
If I want purity in my own world, I need to create it
in my mind, my heart, my spirit, and let it flow out of my mouth and every part of my being.
I have not mastered this yet but it is something I’m working towards and I truly want.
I know it won’t happen overnight, I’m okay with that.
But I have this image of this woman, mother, wife that I want to be, I see her.
And I know I can get there.
I love who I am but what I love more about myself is my need for positive change.
I may never be finished and I’d be okay with that. I don’t want to become complacent in thinking that I don’t have room for growth.
Room to cultivate a healthier environment and life.
For myself and my family.
I no longer want to fall victim to my emotions, but rather let them pass through, feel them, honor them, and then let them go. I want to discipline my mind, thoughts, and emotions, and not let them control me.
I’m finally ready.
With love and light,