I feel such a peace within me.
A peace around me.
I’m laying here with my nursling, his one hand on my chest and the other checking to make sure his new fire truck toy that his grandma got him today is still next to him. It is, so he can rest.
My sweet husband is turned, already drifted into sleep but one foot is pressed against mine.
The fan hums a song that makes my eyes heavy
But I don’t want to sleep just yet.
I want to soak this up some more. I don’t want to forget this.
The curtains are opened and I can see the trees turn into silhouettes as the sun goes down and the sky becomes a cerulean blue.
My life is simple now.
I wake up and make coffee and breakfast for the family. We share laughs and comfortable silence. We live amongst each other and find our new rhythm. I play with my son and watch him play with his grandparents. This is a new love of mine. I go to the store and run errands. My son and I explore the town and we can’t wipe this smile off our face if we tried. We take our moments slow and soak up our time together, enjoying laugh attacks and singing and stealing kisses too– these moments are precious and I’m thankful for this every single day. I get a second to myself now (I’m learning this is okay, too.) I’m connected and my heart is open. I prepare to start school lessons with my son because he’s ready–I’m ready.
In this chapter of my life, I’m a mother and a wife and daughter and a sister all at the same time. These are the hats that I wear right now and I feel fulfilled. Although life is simple, I feel purposeful. And needed. And loved. And appreciated.
I feel whole.
(I’m not sure I’ve ever felt this whole.)
So I’m grateful.
And just wanted you to know.
Love and light.